Redemption (I)

Matthew 12:34
You brood of snakes! How could evil men like you speak what is good and right? For whatever is in your heart determines what you say.

Have you ever done something that you have regretted with everything inside of you?  Oh, have I.

It's at times like these that I am so angry at the person inside of me.  I think of this verse and ask myself "what the heck is in your heart, Crystal??"

I can't figure out where these epic failures originate inside of me. All I know is that, try as I might, I still have them. 

And all I know to do is to admit them, ask for forgiveness, do what I can to correct them (if possible),  get back up again, and try to weed out the ickyness inside of me.  I know that with this comes the risk of failing again.  But when I stay down after I've fallen.... that's when I truly accept defeat.

It doesn't make the thing I did right, but it certainly redeems the act. 

Redemption is one of the most beautiful words.